A Thought...

I have been home for almost 36 hours now... and I have already started to settle into my old routine... true I have changed a lot in the past couple of years. also true that my attitude towards life has changed but there is another truth that super cedes everything else... the fact that the last two years have taught me not just how to be independent but also the importance of being away and being with family. I always thought that if I were to live alone, anywhere in this whole wide world, there would be a million things that I would want to do... all that I haven't done at home... I will have experiences for which I have been yearning since I don't know when!!!

but when I was out of this city and also for a period out of the country, I realized that life wasn't the bed of roses I had imagined. In fact it wasn't even a single rose.... the only thing that I did encounter was thorns!!! One could have told me that no rose comes without a thorn, and I would have believed that, had I not encountered a rose bush whose sole purpose was to provide me with the thorns and someone else the roses!!!

Looking back at these two years, I realize exactly where all the roses were deposited while I was collecting the thorns! 

Since coming back, I have met so many of my relatives... each and every one of them asking me the same question... "Are you here for good?"

And all I can say every time is that for the time being that's what it looks like... 

The reason I am bringing this up here is very simple... I have made plans for myself. but like they say... "Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans!"

Who knows what Life has been brewing for me, while I was busy making plans of my own... those plans which will not materialize because Life's brew will be all over it!

I sometimes wonder... if my plans were different, would Life's brew also have changed? Is it my plans which decide which brew Life is gonna soak it in? Or is it something else that decides what Life brings to us every single moment...

I met a very old friend of mine today... he has been very upset lately... and sitting beside him... talking to him... I realized that his depressing conversation failed to depress me. There must have been a fundamental change in me... that has been brought out by someone out there... generally when someone else is moping, I too get depressed. Maybe not immediately, but it definitely affects my mood later. But that just didn't happen today. He was moping, was even morbid, but I just couldn't bring myself to the point where I too would feel like nothing is right in my life. In fact, I came home and told my brother... that for the first time in my life, I am happy being where I am... and even though I want more out of life, I am contented at this stage and ready to move forward with a huge smile...

Yes something has changed in me... and I have no clue who is responsible for this... is it me... or my new friends... or just Life's Brew.... whatever it is... I am glad it has come to my rescue... :)