Today was an achievement for me... I was always dreaming of this one day... since I was in nursery... the day when I will finally be able to say... Okay... no more lectures for me... and finally ... the day arrived... in the form of today... from now on.. I wont have to sit in classes and day dream about everything... no longer am I gonna sit in the class and keep myself calm when the teacher asked me something which I didn't know the answer of... no more telling myself AAL IZZ WELL! during those stressful moments!
I am happy and proud to say it today... that Finally.... I am an adult.. No more schools (college... what a joke... it was a B-SCHOOL)!!
And the best part of it all is... that I didn't even realise that I will never have to see the face of that board to study something.... until the class was over!!! (some student I am!)
Generally people count days... to remind themselves of the number of days left before the torture is over... but sadly.. I am not one of those... I enjoyed those lectures ( I can say That NOW!) and was one of the few who never cried before leaving home! ( on Hindsight, I actually looked forward to study more!!! ) Oh yes... I might sound strange, but frankly speaking, what else did you expect of me???
Everyone knows that I am strange, that I find things in the least expected places... for example, in my class XII, I took refuge in the library ( for Heaven's Sake!) and later, in college, I always hid behind my design board! so I guess you should have known by now that I am strange... but since you don't have any idea let me help you with that as well...
For all my life, my books have been my best friends... I have taken refuge in them.. Every time I have faced some major issues.. be it boyfriend trouble, family issues, friends' fight or depression... ( I am not adding work pressure, because while on the job I never felt a need to stop).. they have always provided me with what I needed most.. a sense of self belonging, a sense of forgetting everything for the time being and keeping myself busy, so that my mind can come to a state of acceptance, and understanding, and heal my self esteem before the next attack by known strangers... and yet, when I first came to France, I didn't bring with me any books at all... ( luggage issues)... and how lonely those first few days were!
The issue is not that I am finally done with all my Studying ( Exams and Thesis are my next hurdles to cross, before I am ready to completely enter the Corporate and Social World), the issue is that for over a couple of decades, my best friends have been my excuse to keep myself together... What and How will I go forward from this point onwards.. remains to be seen...
In class today,we learnt why we bring memorabilia with us, everywhere we go... and why is it so important for us, to have those things around us at all times, especially at times of STRESS.. but the amazing part is, I didn't bring any such thing with me, not even a photograph, not even a card, not even a lucky charm, to help me deal with this ordeal....
So today when I finally came to understand the necessity of these small inessential items, I realised, I have to leave behind most of these very items behind (what Irony Life is, I tell you), because I now am ready to enter the new WORLD!
A new Beginning... Here I come!
