कहते है खुदा भी आसमान से

कभी कभी नीचे उतर आता है

और आकर इस धरा पर

अपने नए रूप दिखता है

कहते है की वो यहाँ आकर

दुःख हरता, सुख फैलाता है

नए पौधे सीचता, और पेड़ो की

छाव बढ़ता है

कहते है... की दुनिया में नए रंग भरता है

कुदरत को नयी रीत सिखाता है

जो कभी ना किया गया हो...वैसे

चमत्कार कर दिखता है....

पर ऐसा होता तो नहीं है... 

जो ऐसा होता तो हर फुल हँसता,

खिलखिलाता, कभी भी ना मुरझाता...

हर पेड़ अपनी जड़े बढ़ता, कभी ना झरता,

कभी ना गिरता....

सूरज का ताप हमेशा सामान रहता...

और सामान रहती चाँद की ठंडक... 

समुन्दर में ना त्सुनामी आता... 

ना नदियों में बाढ़...

फिर क्यों ऐसा कहते है... 

की इश्वर धरती पे आते है...

दुःख हरते है... सुख बढ़ाते है....????

What If !!!

I have been wondering

for a very long time

what happens if, 

things were not like they have been

what if sun came at night

and moon reflected the days,

gardens were blue and white,

and clouds pink and grey....

I have been thinking what would

happen if crimson were

not the colour of blood

of love and of passion

and instead denoted something else...

what would have happened if,

life were different in every way...

Would I still have found you,

waiting there by the road

with open arms, and an open heart

telling me "I am yours"!!!

What would have happened,

if I hadn't found you?

Would I still have been so happy,

that I wouldn't fall asleep

because reality is better than dreams...

What would have happened,

I wonder,

If things were not as they seem....

They say you are far, somewhere I cant be..

They say that you don't care, you Left on your own will...

they say that you are cold and don't feel a thing...

they say you have no emotion, and that u never really were there...

But I know how it feels...

I know... what we had...

I know you left... because you had to...

Because somethings were too important...

more important than what we were..

I know you have a heart... which as beautiful..

as the morning dew... I know... That everything...

Every Single thing was true...

So don't let it bother you... what they say is nothing but a farce...

let yourself remember the good times...

and give yourself the time...

Because I know you care.. and I know you would be back...

I know you miss me...and I miss you too.

A New Beginning... Here I come!

Today was an achievement for me... I was always dreaming of this one day... since I was in nursery... the day when I will finally be able to say... Okay... no more lectures for me... and finally ... the day arrived... in the form of today... from now on.. I wont have to sit in classes and day dream about everything... no longer am I gonna sit in the class and keep myself calm when the teacher asked me something which I didn't know the answer of... no more telling myself AAL IZZ WELL! during those stressful moments!

I am happy and proud to say it today... that Finally.... I am an adult.. No more schools (college... what a joke... it was a B-SCHOOL)!! 

And the best part of it all is... that I didn't even realise that I will never have to see the face of that board to study something.... until the class was over!!! (some student I am!)

Generally people count days... to remind themselves of the number of days left before the torture is over... but sadly.. I am not one of those... I enjoyed those lectures ( I can say That NOW!) and was one of the few who never cried before leaving home! ( on Hindsight, I actually looked forward to study more!!! ) Oh yes... I might sound strange, but frankly speaking, what else did you expect of me???

Everyone knows that I am strange, that I find things in the least expected places... for example, in my class XII, I took refuge in the library ( for Heaven's Sake!) and later, in college, I always hid behind my design board! so I guess you should have known by now that I am strange... but since you don't have any idea let me help you with that as well...

For all my life, my books have been my best friends... I have taken refuge in them.. Every time I have faced some major issues.. be it boyfriend trouble, family issues, friends' fight or depression... ( I am not adding work pressure, because while on the job I never felt a need to stop).. they have always provided me with what I needed most.. a sense of self belonging, a sense of forgetting everything for the time being and keeping myself busy, so that my mind can come to a state of acceptance, and understanding, and heal my self esteem before the next attack by known strangers... and yet, when I first came to France, I didn't bring with me any books at all... ( luggage issues)... and how lonely those first few days were!

The issue is not that I am finally done with all my Studying ( Exams and Thesis are my next hurdles to cross, before I am ready to completely enter the Corporate and Social World), the issue is that for over a couple of decades, my best friends have been my excuse to keep myself together... What and How will I go forward from this point onwards.. remains to be seen... 

In class today,we learnt why we bring memorabilia with us, everywhere we go... and why is it so important for us, to have those things around us at all times, especially at times of STRESS.. but the amazing part is, I didn't bring any such thing with me, not even a photograph, not even a card, not even a lucky charm, to help me deal with this ordeal....

So today when I finally came to understand the necessity of these small inessential items, I realised, I have to leave behind most of these very items behind  (what Irony Life is, I tell you), because I now am ready to enter the new WORLD! 

A new Beginning... Here I come!

Haan aisi hi hai ye....

Aankhon ko malte huye, tan ko churate huye uth'ti hai ye

Chhoti bachchi si, kai sapne liye neend se uth'ti hai ye

Bhar lega apni bahon mai koi isko, sochti uth'ti hai ye

Nange paoon, aankhen moonde kamre se nikalti hai ye

Na mile jab tak coffee ka mug, aalsi billi si mandrati hai ye

Kah de koi kuch karne ko, to chillati, fir baith jati hai ye

Mil jaye kisi ka kandha ya god wapas let jati hai ye

Aunghti hai, soti hai, jaagti hai, aise hi mandrati  hai ye

Ab ankhen khuli hain iski, sab ko "good-morning" kahti hai ye

Coffee ke sang energy aati hai isme, aur man mai muskati hai ye

Jane kisko yaad kar , der tak man hi man hansti jati  hai ye

Phir uth'ti hai, khud ko ayine mai dekh aankh marti hai ye

Shuru hota din iska, sabse pahle bhai ko satati hai ye

Fir mamma aur papa ke sang laad-pyar jatati hai  ye

Hiran ki tareh pure ghar mai machalti firti hai ye

Apna bistar samet'te samet'te koi geet gungunati hai ye

Balon ko kholti-bandhti hai, bas pagal si ghoomti hai ye

Padegi mamma ki dant, fir bhi TV khol baith jati hai ye

Channel surfing karti hai, na jaane kya dhoondhti hai ye

Pada hai doodh, dekhti hai, maa aayi, gatak jati hai ye

Mobile uthati, sms aur calls check karti, muh sujati hai ye

Chipak jati fon se, na jane kisse batiyati, kisko pakati hai ye

Khil-khila ke hansti hain, haath-pe-haath mar ke hansti hai ye

Na jane kahan se aisi masti,  aisi khushi le aati hai ye

Anmane man se uth'ti hai, nahane jati, bahut der lagati hai ye

Kamre mai aati, khud ho niharti, muskati, khush ho jati hai ye

Janmon ke bhookhon si, fruits pe toot padti, moti hoti jati hai ye

Chipak gayi net pe, mail dekhti, doston ko scrap marti hai ye

Time hua, bhagti hai, nashta bhoolti, maa ke dant khati hai ye

Bijli ki furti se taiyar hoti, ghar se office ke liye bhagti hai ye

Raste bhar do-char calls marti, din ka schedule banati hai ye

Busy ho jati pure din, yaad na dilao to lunch bhool jati hai ye

 Pahar beet'te jate hain, kaam mai ulajhti jati hai ye

Rah-rah kar kisi ke fon aur sms ki aas dekhti hai ye

Sham hote-hote thakan se toot'ne lag jaati hai ye

Battery hoti hai down iski, chai ke liye machalti hai ye

Ghar aati, aur seedhe kamre mai jaa pad jaati hai ye

Aankh moond, kisi sapne mai kho jati, muskati hai ye

Di kisi ne aawaz, uth'ti hai, sab ke beech ja baith'ti hai ye

Hansti hai, khil-khilati hai, sab ka man bahlati hai ye

Dinner karti hai, TV dekhti hai, sare din ke gap abhi kar leti hai

Raat hoti jati hai, der se padhne-kuch kaam karne baith'ti hai ye

Koi roko na isko, toko na isko, apni duniya mai khone lagti hai ye

Laptop band karti, kitaben samet'ti, adh-leti si ho jati hai ye

Aankhen moondti, kisko dhondhti, bahen phailaye let jaati hai ye

Na jane kaisi Pagli hai, subha se raat talak aise hi muskati hai ye

Neend ayi karwaten badalti hai, kisi khushboo si mahakti hai ye

Gudiya si hai, har din sapno se jagti sapno mai kho jeeti hai ye...

Ek Bas...

Ek bas dekh lun tujhe...

Dil ko chain aa jaaye...

Ek raahat si mile mujhe....

Ruh ko sukoon aa jaaye...

Ek bas dekh lun tujhe...

Ek bas jaan lun tujhe...

Is dard ko aaraam aa jaaye...

Bechaini jaaye meri..

Saanse madham ho jaaye...

Ek bas jaan lun tujhe...

Ek baar samajh lun tujhe..

Har dhadkan si tham jaaye...

Afsaane paigaam bane aur..

Taraano ko ek naam mil jaaye....

Ek baar samajh lun tujhe...

Armaan ko karaar mil jaaye,

Ruh ka andaaz nikhar jaaye....

Ek bas dekh lun tujhe...

Ek bas jaan lun tujhe....

Ye tumhara pyar hai!!!

Lavzo ki tarah kahaniyo me padha hai...
alfaaz ki tarah geeto me suna hai...
jo kabhi na gungunayi gayi ho.....
usi unsuni ek ghazal me suna hai..

ek anjaane ehsaas me paaya hai...
ek ajnabhi saaz me paaya hai...
jo kabhi na dekhi gayi ho kahi
usi naujawaan nazaaro me paaya hai...

ek aahaat me mehsus kiya hai
ek aaghaaz me samjha hai...
ek nayi si duniya ho jaise..
har naye andaaz me dekha hai...

tum se judi baate nahi hai...
ye sab to mehez ek ehsaas hai...
jo tumhari maujudgi ne samjhaya
un sabhi baato ka saar hai ye....

ye lamhe hai pyar ke...
jo tumhare khayalo me bitaaye hai...
ye pal hai tassavur ke...
jinpar kavitaaye likhi hai...

ye ehsaas hai tumhare pyar ka...
jo nikhar aayi hai kavita...
ye asar hai tumhare pyaar ka..
jo nikhar aayi hun main...

कैसे कहूँ...

कैसे  कहूँ  की  तुमसे  प्यार  नहीं

कैसे  कहूँ  की  इकरार  नहीं 

तुम्हारी  खुशबू  बसी  है  मेरी  साँसों  में

तुम्हारे  ख्वाब    है  मेरी  आँखों  में

तुम्हारी  हर  बात  दिल  को  याद  है

तुम्हारी  आवाज़  दिल  का  साज़  है

तराने  भी  तो  हम  तुम्हारे  ही  गाते  है

तुम्हारे  बिना  ही  तो  गुमसुम  राते  हैं

कैसे  कहूँ  की  तुमसे  प्यार  नहीं

कैसे  कहूँ  की  इकरार  नहीं

कैसे  नकारू  सचाई  को  की  तुम  ही  मेरे  साथी  हो

कैसे  भुलाऊं    लम्हों  को  बिताये  तेरे  साथ  जो

कैसे  मिटा  दूँ  दिल  से  उन  यादो  को

कैसे  छुपाऊ  अपनी  आँखों  को

तुम्हारे  सपनो  की  मैं  ही  रानी  हूँ

तुम्हारी  परछाई  ही  नहीं  हमराही  हूँ

फिर  कैसे  कहूँ  की  प्यार  नहीं

कैसे  कहूँ  की  इकरार  नहीं 

कैसे  कहूँ  की  ज़िन्दगी  तुम्हारे  बिना  पूरी  है

कैसे  कहूँ  की  मेरी  तन्हाई  भी  अधूरी  है

ख्याल  तुम्हारे  दिल  से  मेरे  जाते  नहीं ...

आवाज़  पुकारती  है  तुम्हारी  हर  कही

किताबो  में  भी  तुम्हारा  चेहरा  नज़र  आता  है

जूनून  तुम्हारे  प्यार  का  मुझ  पर  छाया  जाता  है

तो  कैसे  कहूँ  की  मैं  तुम्हारी  नहीं

कैसे  कहूँ की  तुमसे  प्यार  नहीं

कैसे  कहूँ  की  इकरार  नहीं ....

A Different ME!!!

As I see myself today...I find a different me... 

As if someone has re-arranged

the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle...

I have a new Smile

And new Twinkling eyes....

And a different kind of Laughter...

As if I have rediscovered my being...

I don't know where I have been.... 

When I see myself Blush....

Is it because of your Thoughts...

I am still trying to understand...

But I like this new me...

Who stays happy and smiles...

Who keeps 'Post its' in her purse...

To let you know her whereabouts...

Who keeps a big bag of chocolates below the bed...

Because you like to find them at unexpected places..

And who keeps the freezer stocked of Ice creams,

You enjoy them so much....

Yes this is the new me... 

Who dresses differently...and

Who enjoys everything differently...

I like to think its your touch...

A new morning you have brought...

A new face I have seen...

A new person I have been... 

Just stay by my side...

Like u have been for such a while...

So that I can always come back home...

To a smiling you, and Your essence...

And let me love the joy of your presence...

I am in Love...

Not just with you...

But with everything that 

You make me feel

With everything that 

You do for me....

With everything I am

When I am with You...

So come....hold on to me...

A new journey let us begin...

And let us ride these waves of life...

Without a hitch without a Sigh....

Because you are there with me...

And Nothing else I want from thee.... 

Je sais....I know...

Je sais que cela vous prend tout votre courage de me voir dans les yeux, je sais que cela vous coûte d'essayer d'être près de moi, je sais que vous vous demandez pourquoi je ne vous laisse pas aller, je sais que tu crois que je suis fou que je suis tellement obsédés, je sais tout ce que vous pensez et ce que vous savez ... et pourtant je ne peux pas te laisser aller .. je ne veux pas avoir quelque chose à se poursuivre pendant .. Je continue le mile supplémentaire, juste pour te voir sourire ... à la fin de la route de la vie d'aujourd'hui .. Je dois encore apprendre à lâcher de vous.

Translation:

I know it takes you all your courage to see me in the eye, I know it hurts you to try to be near me, I know you wonder why I don't let you go, I know you think I am crazy that I am so obsessed, I know all that you think and all that you know...and yet I can't let you go..I wont have anything to go on for.. I keep going the extra mile, just to see you smile... at the end of the road of life today.. I still have to learn how to let go of you.

सिला ...

आज  ख्याल  भर  से  निकाल  दिया  है  तुम्हे ... 

ना  और  सुकून  खोएंगे  हम .... 

जब  बुझ  जायेगी  शमा  हर  घर  में  आज  सोने  के  लिए ....

अपनी  हार  पे  ज़ार ज़ार  रोयेंगे  हम ....

इस  दोस्ती  का  सिला  जो  दिया  है  तुमने ...

ना  भूल  पायेंगे  कभी  हम ...

ना  दिल  को  अब  उड़ने  देंगे  खुले  आसमा  में ....

और  ना  ही  अब  क़ुबूल  करेंगे  दोस्ती  किसी  की ...

सीख  तुम्हारी  ना  भूलेंगे  हम ...

आंसुओ  से  वोह  सारी  यादे  मिटा  देंगे  हम ...